August 27, 2010

one of those conversations...

em: Hokkien is so much more easier than Chinese. If you learn Hokkien, you can understand and communicate much better with people than if you learn Mandarin.
me: Is it?
em: Ya!
me: How do you say 'I'm pissed' in Hokkien?
em: Nabei!
me: ...

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 18:14

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August 13, 2010

Here's why!

On seeing the Singapore flag all around us this month,

me: You want (the flag)? Can bring one home for your parents, as a souvenir.
em: Really? Can we take?
me: Ya! Bring back to Indonesia and hang...
em: But there are stains... (of a crescent moon and 5 stars) must clean away the stains first.

p.s. Indonesian national flag = Singapore flag minus 'the stains'.

On an unmention-able boyfriend saying stupid things,

me: He had to go and say stupid things like, 'I think you will be better, happier without me.' So, she got insecure and started fearing for the worst. Then, (she) die lah!
em: (In my relationship) I must never say that. 'Cos my girlfriend will believe that... and then, (I will) die!

p.s. Emman is careful not to perform inception, esp when it involves our relationship.

Emman is at his most loveable when he displays unexpected, random wit and humour.

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 13:08

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bad-bad feelings and good ones

Fear must be contagious. Or/and insecurity. All the bad, bad feelings are more contagious than the good, good ones.

But it's within you to hold them in. To insist on taking the rein and not let them control you. Cos once the latter has happened, it's catastrophe.

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On the other hand, happiness can be very private and sometimes, better be contained than be spread.

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 12:42

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August 04, 2010

What happens next?

谋事在人 成事在天

Today, I absolutely felt the meaning behind this Mandarin phrase.

In English, simply translated: To plan is in Man's hands; but to succeed is in God's (or Heaven's) plan.

Nearing the semi-ripe old age of 30, I look back and realise that many things, the things that matter, the things that last or have a lasting effect on my life (so far) happened only when I least expect them to. Only when I have half-convinced myself that my effort may not pay off and maybe it's not meant to be, maybe I started with a bad plan, will the twist come, and the silver lining show through.

A couple times this happened, my friends congratulated me and told me it's because patience does pay off. Patience. A word I am often and naturally associated with, especially since I work with children (autistic, some more!!!). I wonder, even now, if it's really about patience.

I don't intentionally tell myself to be patient and to wait. I mean, even when waiting for that never-arriving bus, I don't tell myself to be patient. I just, well, do it. Wait. I just do what that task or that moment requires me to do. If it's to wait, then wait. Unless it's something that I actually know I cannot wait for, then I would want it to be done or happen quick. Then, I will do what I can to catalyse that. Otherwise, I just do it and see what happens.

Yes. 'See what happens next.' That's more like me. I'm really just hanging on to see what can happen next and meanwhile, do what I need to do for that point in time. Somehow, that translates to patience, perhaps.

Oh, I digressed.

I'm so happie today cos what I had wanted for the past 2-3 months has arrived. =) It is a good day. 4 August 2010. ^^

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 22:37

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Lost in paranoia

Paranoia kidnapped my posts.

One of the many, many 'weird' things/thoughts of Emman.

But. Yes, I love him, still.

One of the many, many ironic things about me.

One of the many, many uncomprehensible things about love.

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 09:15

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